For those of you who know me, you know that:
1. I avoid public speaking like the plague
2. I have to medicate before getting any type of shot
and
3. I hate beans
What has started this series of unfortunate events is the communications class I am taking right now. You see I have to talk with 3 other people in front of the whole class for 45 MINUTES! That means I have to talk for 11.25 minutes. Thats going to be impossible. The last time I talked in public was in South Africa ages ago during a church meeting. I had to speak for 15 minutes. I was in a branch, so I convinced myself that I could do it because there was only going to be about 30 people there. Anyways, I prepared my talk. Went over it again and again. I practiced looking up and I made sure it was 15 minutes long and all was well. As soon as I got up to give my talk the usual happened. My heart started racing. I couldn't look up. My face turned red. Then I started talking with a shaking voice and when I finished my talk only 5 minutes had passed and I sounded like I had just run a marathon. Oh- and I never once looked up. So how I am supposed to talk for an average of 11.25 minutes in front of an entire class? And did I mention that there are 3 guys in my group? The one is a convicted felon for armed robbery, the other is about 47 years old and makes less money than his wife, and the other is a personal trainer who loves to eat chocolate protein bars during class. How am I supposed to talk to them for a duration of 45 minutes? Kill me!
Moving onto the next thing. I had to change birth controls. I've had to do this about 4 times in my life, so it wasn't such a big deal. Or so I thought. This new pill I have been prescribed can cause abnormally high potassium levels in some people and that can lead to heart palpitations. So in about a month, I have to get my blood taken to be tested. Problem, problem, problem! Firstly, as you know, I am terrified of needles. Secondly, aren't blood taking needles bigger than normal ones? It's still weeks away and I am already stressing... bad! Last time I got a shot I had to take a valium before. Yes, it's that bad!
Lastly, I am not being forced to eat beans quite yet... But I am mentally preparing myself just in case.
1 week ago
5 comments:
When I first started playing the violin I was terrified of playing in front of people...so much so that my hands would slip all the way up the neck of the instrument. I finally conquered my fear by making a concerted effort with visualization. I thought of the 3 people I trusted most in the world and the front row in the audience became those three people. The lady with the blonde hair became my Mom, the child my best friend, etc etc... you need to be uber focussed on making it work, but it relaxes you like nothing else...also sniff some fresh lavender/rosemary before = recipe for success....good luck!!!! :)
Hahaha ok I laugh at the descriptions of the guys you have to talk to. That sounds awful and horrifying! But maybe the personal trainer will talk about protein bars and his muscled for so long he'll take up your time as well? I personally have no problem speaking in front of people but I DO get the shakey voice. So maybe that's just normal? (that didn't make you feel any better huh?)
That birth control sounds scary! What kind is it?
I'll definitely be praying for you girl! It will all work out in the end!
Haha - I love beans :)
Here's my advice - wear something green (it always works for me). Plus, dress up in your best shoes - that way when you start shaking and looking down you'll see the cool shoes and then you'll instantly feel awesome again ... Always works for me ;)
Thanks for all the advice guys! I will be sure to update as each terrifying thing happens! :)
Court- i think its Yaz...
loving your blog!
i can totally relate to the public speaking madness.
i too still get super afraid!
i am so a communications major.. so i know what you are talking about.
are you taking public speaking right now?!
..newest follower!
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